Just plain ol' madness.

Its a wonderful madness,

To live inside of you. 

I dream of you, being inside of you,

The grip, that tight feel. 

I taste that wetted area lying in between,

Your moans excite me and ignite the fire from within,

I’m yours for the taking, please dive on in. 

I’m overtaken, you’re breathtaking,

There’s no overcoming this love making. 

You’re my thirst quencher,

My delightful teaser,

My love goddess,

My Divine pleaser. 

I thank you in ways we only know how,

I succumb to that place so deep inside of you,

And I smile. 

Could love ever be this real? 

Something you taste and something that you feel?

(Source: definingdope)

Have you ever felt like the sexual chemistry you get at home is not what its all cracked up to be.  As I sit here and my penis gets ever hard, I think of all the conquest I’ve been through.  And no, I’m not a chavonist, I’m just playing my personal porn back in my head from memory.  My wife happens to be towards the bottom of that scale in her sexually free aspects.  I get a bigger boner staring at her sister and mother, two women that happen to be older than her as well.  I don’t know what it is, but I know, the lack of whatever it is, is making me crazy.

I’ve been killing myself for some time now.  Obviously its unknown where I’m going with this.  When I started this blog, I just wanted to express myself as it appeared everyone else on here was doing.  But there has been this “itch” with a major need to be scratched that is leading me through a topsy-turvy point.  I’m married, but I honestly hate it.  I guess its watching my dad be a provider for so many years is the reason that I stay.  But I don’t feel children need to be exposed to the ills that occur when a marriage goes sour.  Believe me, I experienced this first hand when my parents split.  I’m not sure if its the anger that fuels me, or the fact that I’ve always been quick to be impulsive and such a risk taker that I could care less about the outcome of a situation, I’m completely focused on the plateau effect of the situation.  I guess there will be more to come in regards to me reaching my sanity through this insane world.